“I Don’t Believe It…”

…famous catch-phrase of ‘Victor Meldrew’, grumpy old man, in the British TV sitcom ‘One Foot in the Grave’…

I have hesitated to write this, but on Monday I experienced that one foot in the grave. Dave cottoned on first…

‘Tone, look at your leg.’

We were standing side-by-side admiring each other in the bedroom mirror (as you do), so I was looking at him and had not noticed my left leg visibly swelling. He snatched his shorts and shot off downstairs to phone our doctor friend, Nate. The answer was ‘Get him to the hospital – NOW’.

I cannot believe that, with my age, healthy diet, non-smoking and vigorously fitness-related lifestyle, this could happen to me. I have a blood clot. After an ultrasound scan to confirm it, I am injecting myself in the stomach every morning and popping rat-poison pills every evening.

Apparently you don’t have to be old to have this happen, although usually here is a family history. In my family, there isn’t. To reassure me, I now have details of a young racing cyclist who did 100km a day, football players, and so on. But it doesn’t feel any better, to watch the others enjoy their acrobatics, wrestling and weight lifting and stuff and have to sit out. I can at least coach (more shouting and sitting down than usual at the moment), I can still drive, but there are twice-weekly blood tests which are rather pinning me down. Just at the moment I feel a pale shadow of that Tone I presented in the ‘Living the Dream’ books.

I would have expected another 30 years before this sort of thing threatened. Oh well.

Sorry for the gloomy tone of this post – oh, that’s rather good actually – “Gloomy TONE”. Not ‘arf!

Well, I managed to pretend all was well and to post some great pictures in my previous post, so let’s carry on with that tradition. Fit lads – here we go…







(I almost took that picture out again. Bad handgrip on the bar, and oh, those teeth… but the pecs and delts won me over.)

For the next one, I don’t really like pics ‘staged’ for wallpaper or whatever, but the guy at least is a winner:


You can make good use of your kitchen/diner to tone up…





bw chest abs

cheer up

(Now there’s someone else who maybe needs to cheer up)

Time for a couple of smiling faces then…

cable pull


So there we go. I feel better for looking at those, and maybe they’ve livened you up too.

Thanks, my lovely Dave, for what you did for me…

dim light setting

He’s definitely ‘The Boy’ – MY BOY…

Loving the Boy: ISBN 978-1-907732-30-0

The Power of Love: ISBN 978-1-907732-41-6

Against All Odds: ISBN 978-1-908645-35-7

A post-script from Leo (son) – “Can I stick the needle in tomorrow, Dad?” Hmmm, maybe not…

About tonycavanagh

Born Northampton UK; school Oxford UK and Oak Ridge Tennessee, where I met my wonderful partner Dave, also from UK. Oak Ridge is our main training base for acrobatics and circus stuff, but we also established a base in Wales (UK) to serve us when we are working in Europe. Our 'story', of finding gay love, learning the acrobatics trade and then of how we got shot at during our show (and worse was to follow - just to prove that the risks of being an acrobat are not always the most obvious ones!) are now available in my three books 'Loving the Boy', 'The Power of Love' and 'Against All Odds'. Links available on most blog posts. Actually, waiting for the imminent arrival of the first printed copies was far scarier than anything we do in performance. A fourth book - not about us but exploring the sadness of a gay Native American boy denied his true identity - is currently with an agent for evaluation. watch for 'Let The Future Find Me' in due time. And now to book five... another boy, another quest... seems its always boys...
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